She is 1 now!

I read a news today that made me cry.  The news is about a pregnant woman refused to do chemotherapy for her cancer.  She was pregnant after broke up with her boyfriend, but she decided to keep the baby.  After few months of struggle, she delivered her immature baby.  Both of them were in weak condition.  Finally the mother could hold her baby girl once before she died.  

I cried after reading this news.  I don't know why, I am so emotion after my younger daughter was born.  I feel very sad after reading or hearing any tragic news regarding about babies.  I just could not stand it.  I have a very strong connect with my younger daughter (of course, I love my older daughter deeply too).  Yesterday, my younger girl turned 1.  I feel so happy and sad...why sad?  I am scared...one day, both of them don't need me anymore.  Now, I always complaint about taking care of them everyday.  No time to rest, no private time, blah la blah la...actually I enjoyed it.  One day if they care take care themselves, no more changing diaper (actually my older girl is diaper free now), no need to shower them, no need to feed them..what would I do?  I always think that they need me so much, I am very important to them.  On the other hand, I need them so much, and I could not live without them too.  I love them both...of course, I love my husband too....hahahaha.....