She is 1 now!

I read a news today that made me cry.  The news is about a pregnant woman refused to do chemotherapy for her cancer.  She was pregnant after broke up with her boyfriend, but she decided to keep the baby.  After few months of struggle, she delivered her immature baby.  Both of them were in weak condition.  Finally the mother could hold her baby girl once before she died.  

I cried after reading this news.  I don't know why, I am so emotion after my younger daughter was born.  I feel very sad after reading or hearing any tragic news regarding about babies.  I just could not stand it.  I have a very strong connect with my younger daughter (of course, I love my older daughter deeply too).  Yesterday, my younger girl turned 1.  I feel so happy and sad...why sad?  I am scared...one day, both of them don't need me anymore.  Now, I always complaint about taking care of them everyday.  No time to rest, no private time, blah la blah la...actually I enjoyed it.  One day if they care take care themselves, no more changing diaper (actually my older girl is diaper free now), no need to shower them, no need to feed them..what would I do?  I always think that they need me so much, I am very important to them.  On the other hand, I need them so much, and I could not live without them too.  I love them both...of course, I love my husband too....hahahaha.....

The world without cancer...

Steve Job is dead, I found out from Facebook.  I was shocked, well...expected, since he had been fighting with cancer for several years.  I just feel shocked that he passed away before the next new iphone release.  I watched his 2005 Stanford address on youtube, and he mentioned about his cancer.  The doctor told him that he could only live for 3 to 6 months.  At then end, he lived for 6 years.  His courage made him alive for 6 years instead of months.  However, he still could not win this battle.  

Cancer...is killing hundreds and thousands of people around the world.  Including...my parent.  I always think ...what if the world without cancer, maybe a lot of our love ones would still be around.  Watching them get old, grey hair, wrinkles...but at the moment, no one has find a way to cure cancer.  We can only watching our love one....die!  

My boss' wife is suffering cancer too.  I can tell that my boss is very sad and down.  He is always taking days off and taking care his wife.  After being with his wife for over 30 years, I understand it is hard for him say goodbye to his wife...

The life is full of choices, but we can't choose how long we can live.  If the god wants to take your life away, you can't say no.  Feel sad...Today, I have been thinking about this quote "Live hungry, live foolish!"  I will remember it.  

Just hope one day...we don't have to scare of cancer anymore.  One day...