A brand new place to start!: 12月 2011

2011年12月27日星期二

Christmas又過去了…

歡渡完我最愛節日Christmas! 今年你做過什麼?

搬入新居接近一年, first time
BBQ! 買個新grill and need to put it together. 但係對於老老絕冇難庋!

兩隻monsters一定係玩, 食, and 攪破懷!

呢隻絕對係一隻謂食豬!

至於家姐, eat bread only!

Snowman 係我! Santa 係老老!

有party, of course got to have wine!

At night, 老老 and I were chatting. We were talking about New Year goal. 2011 was not a really good year for us. Well, at least we are all healthy. 最近係腦海成日出現"係咁假啦!" 係work place 俾人蝦, 係home 俾D monsters 點來點去, 好tired, life not smooth, I would say to myself...係咁假啦 This is life. 老老says I give up, 冇heart! But what else I can do? For my work and career, I am totally lost. I have been waiting for 4 years, still no answer! What else I can do? I am very admire people working on their dream jobs. Or at least going to work with a smiling face.

I really want a change. I don't want to waste any time. But where I can start?

Anyway, I wish everyone have a happy new year! No more BS in this world. Hahaha...

2011年12月20日星期二

A song

First of all, I am not that old. Well...I am old (34 years old). I really like a song 甄妮-一脸是红. She is a famous singer (in the past)? I don't really listen to her songs, but I really like this song. I finally did a deep search on the internet, and I found a link. This song was from her "Jenny" album year 1989. In 1989, I was still 12 years old, but I already love songs very much, especially Cantonese songs.

This song is about a woman lost her love one, and she was drunk. I even remember few words from the song. All these years, I would think of this song while I was drunk. Yeah...my life was a mess before I met my husband. I made myself drunk, looked at the mirror seeing my face turned red, remembered this song. This kind of life...I still remember one night, I was drunk again, I was sitting the stairs outside my house, crying, pointing to the sky...asking where my parent. Well my old time was a mystery. Bad relationship, betrayed by best friend...today I listen to this song again...this song is already 22 years ago.

http://www.xiami.com/song/detail/id/167462

2011年12月19日星期一

做人父母甚困難

昨晚好唔開心, 真真正正教訓大妹(當然有體罰). 見到佢pat pat 傷痕, 好心痛,
又好嬲! 佢足足用了三個小時食飯, 但係都not finished. 一直含住口入面, 叫佢吞落去, 死都唔肯! 非常十分頑強,
罰佢standing outside the door, 都係唔吞! 呢種臭脾氣, 似邊個? (silent...)

成三歲人就似二歲, 同班同學高佢成個頭! 體重保持25lbs! 零食就open mouth,
cookies, ice-cream 係best friend! 正餐就咪bother
佢! 食啦, 食啦,
講到口水乾! 我連亞wu婆都出, no use! What can I do?

Go to sleep 之前同佢講”你唔食, mimi 就唔再錫你.” 佢竟然話”ok!”Few
minutes later, 就went to sleep! 唔使食, mimi都可以give up! 之後我好down, 辛苦take care 佢, cook something she likes, cheap on myself but not on
her. 最後result 係咁! 半夜佢
wake up pee pee, 見到佢pat pat 傷痕,
佢話”mimi, sorry, 叫亞wu婆go away!” 之後, I cried…抱住佢, cried…

She is just 3 years old, 要教好佢,
so hard! Still have long way to go!

We got a new BBQ grill yesterday. We are going to have our own BBQ party on Christmas!

2011年12月14日星期三

作家夢

從少有一個夢想, 做一個編劇or作家, 因為最愛幻想! 嘗試投稿, 試幾次冇回複就冇再試, 心想寫得差,文法又差,故事又無聊, 邊個會睇? 最重耍係美國住20年, 中文真係有限公司!

最近clean up 發現自己舊作, 再睇番先知自己都冇才華! 來來去去都寫相同故事, 自己感覺, 對事見解! 但係再睇又幾有趣, 發覺自己真的長大了! 思想己經唔同.

今日係公司又發現自己舊日記, 2010年...老老買本新notebook俾我, 好like, 幻想自己係個女仔, 坐係地下發夢!